Family Paradox
There is a darkness in my family
A form of sadness that only we can see
It comes out when we get quiet
or when the sun goes down
It flows in our blood
A melancholy that never goes away
It’s embedded in us
Like curses we never chose
Our people drink a lot, some say to forget
Our people also work from dusk till dawn,
probably for the same reason
Our people don’t shed tears
We don’t tolerate the weak they say
Our people never speak of the past
Their past is dark and silent
All they can think of is the day ahead.
There is only the road ahead they say
To what though? I wonder if they remember
They just want to keep going
Outrun the demons of the past
And we keep on running.
My people can also laugh and love
We laugh like children playing under the rising sun
We love our own more than we could ever love ourselves
For our own we could sacrifice all that we have, all that we are…
They carry our hopes and dreams
Our blood is our oath and our future
They are the paradox that I can never comprehend
They carry pain and love in the exact same proportions
Infinite amounts
And I fall in the middle of this paradox
Where does our destiny lie?
Pain or love?
They say pressure can either be
Creation or destruction
And every once in a while,
I gaze at the dark and silent sky and wonder what will happen to me
What will happen when I reach my breaking point?
When I’m forced to choose between pain and love
I know they want me to solve the paradox
To choose love and let go of the pain we carry
Give them the peace we lost
But what If I can’t?
What if the answer to
The paradox is not in me?
For All I hear is the silence of the past
And the faint echoes of
The stories that demand to be told
Again, and again, I wonder
What will I be?
But until I can find the answer, I will do like they do
Run in the dark night
And keep on running
Forever running
~ Ryan
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